Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Stop, Drop, & Open

A few nights ago my husband broke the silence in our bed, it was the after the kiss and such that we do every night that we land in the bed at the same time. We aren’t sluggers ( TMI) I roll my way and he rolls his. So he disturbs the list I was doing in my head about the next day. I imagine we all do that. I suddenly hear "I guess God is teaching us patience." I respond with "I suppose so." AAAHHHHH!!!!!!! Has been running through my head for a while now. I have this little panicked person in my head running about flailing it’s arms and screaming. I have to be calm because that’s my job.

The dryer went out leaving me to go to the laundry mat or hang the wet items around the house. I’m listening to the Darlins and watching Andy so that I can feel closer to the look of the house.

The doctor gave me worse case scenario. It’s not a life or death thing. The next doctor will not see me until July. Timing is better then anyway. I’ll wait.

My son is twelve. Need I say more? You know I will. Last night at dinner I said the dishwasher needs to be emptied. He said "If you pay me" AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! I looked at him and said I want you to hear me. I want to make this perfectly clear then I rambled on about school, my upbringing, camp, mission trips, we had an intermission, a puppet show, and my husband summed it all up. Bad timing the kid had a bad day and it took a while for him to open up to his dad.

We’ve had a need for rain. Everywhere except my back yard. I told them when the house was inspected it looked like a problem. No they said it’s normal. What’s that noise? We asked as we looked at each other. The sound of rushing water through the vents. AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
That little person is running amuck in my head.

I’m going to stop pray and open the Bible. The first one was no help I’ll keep looking I assure the little person about to be in need of a paper bag. The second one was about marriage. Good breath you have someone else (he panics more than you) I reach for my mom’s old KJ God being with us see we have God. I’ll sit now the little person says.

I picked up the book that fell to the floor when I reached for mom’s Bible. I open it to the marked spot. These aren't what I might have found had I looked up house is a money pit and so on but they were sent and the little person in my head is taking a nap.

(My daughter just told me a roach can live three days with out it head on. See we can do it if they can . . .I can't sell it. Never mind )

Proverbs 12:25

25 An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up.

Philippians 4:10-13

Thanks for Their Gifts 10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.


codepoke said...

Need I say more? You know I will.


laundry mat

In Texas, they call them, "Washaterias". I chuckle every time I see that.

I have to be calm because that’s my job.

Ah. That is a burdensome job. I'm sorry.

Combine that with the doctor and everything else, and I'm really, really sorry. Praise the Lord that we are learning to do all things through Him who strengthens me.

I hope you have a sister to AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! to from time to time.

Maeghan said...

He said "If you pay me" AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

sigh ... my own AAAHHs are getting longer and louder.

codepoke said...

Putting two and two together, I think I want to say this over here.


Seek out the bible verses that the Spirit allows to confuse and convict you. There are verses that say the opposite of what you want to hear - and possibly the opposite of what you need to hear, too. Those are the right verses to meditate on, because they will drive you to work to understand the God Who wrote them.

If you find a verse that tells you to hurt yourself, don't just start hurting yourself. Ask the Spirit why that verse is telling you to do something that you don't want to do. Ask the Spirit to reveal and to convict. Then, don't wait. Start digging in. Study that verse, and every verse linked to it, and its context, and every verse that seems to say the opposite.

Eventually, you will either learn that you were understanding that verse wrongly, or you will understand why you should do what it tells you to do. It will be a joy to you - maybe a Gethsemane joy, but a joy.

Our God is not a God of confusion. He can carry you through every doubt. And you are not without tools. You can work on this confusion, and solve it.

Love ya, sister.

mrtool said...

it must be something with this time of year. it would seem that people are loosing there mind and causing undue stress for others. i myself have been under a great deal of stress and so have many of my co-workers and classmates.

Romans 8:28 "and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose." (NIV)

Milly said...

Thanks brothers and sisters. It's a bump in my road that's all. Others have large sink holes so I'm feeling blessed.