After she had tucked the children in she took time for herself. As she sat alone in the darkness she began to attempt to dismiss all of the day, some of the events were harder to let go of than others. Still she needed peace, tonight she was going to try to get it. Taking in a deep breath of the closet air she closed her eyes and thought of peace. Her mind quickly went back to the events of the day. Stop it, stop thinking of today. Move on. Her mind then played a trick as if a child had just been clued in on how to tease its parent into giving them exactly what he wanted. She began to think of tomorrow. Damn, she whispered, damn, why can’t I just let go and do this? Trying again she took in a breath and slowly released it. Just pray Kate just give it up and pray. Dear God thank you for the day please watch over my children keep us safe hold fast to us forgive me of my sins I need for my car to run a bit longer and a raise would be great. Amen.
I so phoned that in. Gee Kate way to talk to God!
Why can’t I just let go? Why God can’t I just give up control? Why is this so hard for me? Why am I not getting it?
Let your spirit soar!
I want my spirit to soar!