Here I am sitting in the hospital watching my big sis sleep.
It seems like a dream one really bad dream.
I thought I’d tell you a bit about her.
Memz is a single woman who worked hard to get where she is, but that’s only a small part of who she is.
Let’s start with something from childhood.
Thanks Jason for the reminder of those little moments.
We grew up sharing a room.
At night we’d play that game. If you shared a room you know the one. Ours went like this.
You turn off the light.
No you turn off the light
You were the last one in bed you turn it off
You’re closer, you turn it off
I’m asleep. (Fake snoring noises)
I’m asleep first (Fake snoring noises louder)
You are faking it
You are faking it
Am not
Are so
You are
Dad’s voice GIRLS!!!!!
Giggles
GIRLS!!!!
Shhhh turn off the light
You turn off the light
You turn off the light.
No you turn off the light
You were the last one in bed you turn it off
You’re closer, you turn it off
I’m asleep. (Fake snoring noises)
I’m asleep first (Fake snoring noises louder)
You are faking it
You are faking it
Am not
Are so
You are
THUMP THUMP THUMP Dad’s footsteps
(Whispers) Now you’ve done it
(Whispers) Not me you
Door is opened man with disapproving look turns off the light.
Girls giggle because they know that daddy loves them and smiled as he walked away.
I’m praying that the light stays on for years to come.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Please pray
Please pray for my sister.
She’s facing a giant . . . .CANCER.
. . . .and yes we are vary afraid.
She’s facing a giant . . . .CANCER.
. . . .and yes we are vary afraid.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Fear not! I'm afraid and proud of it!
Fear is a wondrous thing to me. If we actually own up to it we fear a lot of things. Some of those are rational fears some are irrational. The cool thing is that God knows us. He knew that we would have all kinds of fear.
The word fear is in the NIV Bible over three hundred times.
Everyone has thorns with their roses. Yes I think that strife and fear are on the same subject line. Not having enough money to pay the bills brings fear. Will the water get shut off? What about food for my children? If you’ve never had to worry about the basics in life then you’re blessed but not as blessed as those who have been hungry only to be fed. God has always seen that I be taken care of from a roof over my head to a meal when hungry. I learned more about how wonderful humans are when I lived on my own. I’m sure that the blessing will continue now that I’m single again.
Divorce brings fear.
I was afraid to stay with this man who told me how horrible it was to be with me. He let me know that I never met his expectations and he told me every day that we were together. He didn’t say it outright every day but he let me know by slamming a door or an object. I felt that he hated the very sight of this house it was his prison and that those of us inside held the keys to his freedom.
When he told me that he wouldn’t leave her for me I knew it was done. I still tried, after all twenty years of marriage doesn’t go gently into that good night. It yells, cries, and pounds its fists. It says things that hurt beyond repair.
I remember the moment that I knew I was done he chose to kiss the dog goodbye instead of me. The dog was once again put in front of me. At least it wasn’t her text messaging or a call. Many times we would be talking and that woman would have to hunt him down. Good grief it was as if she knew we were together. Her marriage was sinking so why not help mine go down with it. On my way to work I made the call to my sister-in-law and my brother to help me find a good attorney. My sis-in-law is an attorney and my brother is a lobbyist. My sis’n law listened to me tell my story. She understood and was just what I needed at that moment and many after.
Many times I would show up at church looking, as my friends have told me, beat down and as if the world was on my shoulders. I sat in the booth and cried. “G” just worked around me as if nothing were wrong once in awhile asking me to push a button or turn something on. Others hugged me giving words of encouragement. I didn’t tell anyone for a while, actually the news paper told a few. I was afraid to tell them and I was afraid to tell my children. I said something to the worship minister in front of my minister, I think it was about working out at an apartment workout room. My minister led me out of the room and confronted me about the divorce. He told me that he and his wife were sorry and if I need anything to please let them know. His wife found me where I usually hang out at on Wednesday nights. She related the same as the minister I told her that I was doing alright she cried and told me she wasn’t. My fears of telling people at church were gone. They loved me and would give me what I needed. support.
I was afraid about taking care of the house. I’m handy but not at everything. I was told this week that whatever help I needed was a phone call away.
Telling my children was hard Miss Littles was devastated and held me as she cried. God has sent us friends who understand and live right next door. They know too well. Miss Littles and her friend have spent the summer together. They are swimmer as we speak. I have a friend who gets all those fears and tries to solve them or at least listen. It’s good to have Christian friends next to us. I’ve been told by the Miss Little Friend several times that they are glad that we are Christians. So am I God has held me through all of this.
One friend has let me cry on his shoulder, so to speak, and has met a lady who makes his heart thump. I miss him but what a joy to know that we can be so devastated, so afraid, and then be given love and hope.
I think I may be ready to date again but that brings a whole new set of fears. After all I was told how I didn’t measure up every day for almost twenty years.
I learn from fear. At times I was afraid of being hit by him. I was afraid of how the judge was going to rule, I was afraid of my children falling apart, I was afraid of what people might think. I was afraid of lots of things and it seemed all the things around me. Then the morning came and the sun came in a beautiful new painting from God and it was a new day to wade through those fears.
I’ll write about feeling stupid some day, after all it wasn’t his first. It was, however, the last one I have to deal with in my marriage.
So if you are afraid know that you aren't alone. God has your back and I'm praying for you.
If you need to vent fear/fears you are welcome to do it here. You don’t have to say who you are. We (those who visit will spend time here.) will pray for you.
The word fear is in the NIV Bible over three hundred times.
Everyone has thorns with their roses. Yes I think that strife and fear are on the same subject line. Not having enough money to pay the bills brings fear. Will the water get shut off? What about food for my children? If you’ve never had to worry about the basics in life then you’re blessed but not as blessed as those who have been hungry only to be fed. God has always seen that I be taken care of from a roof over my head to a meal when hungry. I learned more about how wonderful humans are when I lived on my own. I’m sure that the blessing will continue now that I’m single again.
Divorce brings fear.
I was afraid to stay with this man who told me how horrible it was to be with me. He let me know that I never met his expectations and he told me every day that we were together. He didn’t say it outright every day but he let me know by slamming a door or an object. I felt that he hated the very sight of this house it was his prison and that those of us inside held the keys to his freedom.
When he told me that he wouldn’t leave her for me I knew it was done. I still tried, after all twenty years of marriage doesn’t go gently into that good night. It yells, cries, and pounds its fists. It says things that hurt beyond repair.
I remember the moment that I knew I was done he chose to kiss the dog goodbye instead of me. The dog was once again put in front of me. At least it wasn’t her text messaging or a call. Many times we would be talking and that woman would have to hunt him down. Good grief it was as if she knew we were together. Her marriage was sinking so why not help mine go down with it. On my way to work I made the call to my sister-in-law and my brother to help me find a good attorney. My sis-in-law is an attorney and my brother is a lobbyist. My sis’n law listened to me tell my story. She understood and was just what I needed at that moment and many after.
Many times I would show up at church looking, as my friends have told me, beat down and as if the world was on my shoulders. I sat in the booth and cried. “G” just worked around me as if nothing were wrong once in awhile asking me to push a button or turn something on. Others hugged me giving words of encouragement. I didn’t tell anyone for a while, actually the news paper told a few. I was afraid to tell them and I was afraid to tell my children. I said something to the worship minister in front of my minister, I think it was about working out at an apartment workout room. My minister led me out of the room and confronted me about the divorce. He told me that he and his wife were sorry and if I need anything to please let them know. His wife found me where I usually hang out at on Wednesday nights. She related the same as the minister I told her that I was doing alright she cried and told me she wasn’t. My fears of telling people at church were gone. They loved me and would give me what I needed. support.
I was afraid about taking care of the house. I’m handy but not at everything. I was told this week that whatever help I needed was a phone call away.
Telling my children was hard Miss Littles was devastated and held me as she cried. God has sent us friends who understand and live right next door. They know too well. Miss Littles and her friend have spent the summer together. They are swimmer as we speak. I have a friend who gets all those fears and tries to solve them or at least listen. It’s good to have Christian friends next to us. I’ve been told by the Miss Little Friend several times that they are glad that we are Christians. So am I God has held me through all of this.
One friend has let me cry on his shoulder, so to speak, and has met a lady who makes his heart thump. I miss him but what a joy to know that we can be so devastated, so afraid, and then be given love and hope.
I think I may be ready to date again but that brings a whole new set of fears. After all I was told how I didn’t measure up every day for almost twenty years.
I learn from fear. At times I was afraid of being hit by him. I was afraid of how the judge was going to rule, I was afraid of my children falling apart, I was afraid of what people might think. I was afraid of lots of things and it seemed all the things around me. Then the morning came and the sun came in a beautiful new painting from God and it was a new day to wade through those fears.
I’ll write about feeling stupid some day, after all it wasn’t his first. It was, however, the last one I have to deal with in my marriage.
So if you are afraid know that you aren't alone. God has your back and I'm praying for you.
If you need to vent fear/fears you are welcome to do it here. You don’t have to say who you are. We (those who visit will spend time here.) will pray for you.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
From the Realm
Fun from Pearce and Story
I feel that I was able to delve into who I was in doing this. Yes now with their help I can save a ton of cash on therapy.
Thank you dudes!
http://pearceandstory.blogspot.com/2009/07/versus.html
1) Movie theater Junior Mints vs. Movie theater Goobers
Junior Mints-Chocolate and mint duh this is an easy one.
Kevin rent from Red Box for a dollar and purchase candy at Walgreens for a dollar only two bucks for a nice movie night.
2) Trip to the Beach vs. Trip to the Mountains
I love the beach and my kids could spend the day on the sand. I’m allergic to the sun so I have to give in to itching and tossing my lunch. The mountains are my pick. I wanted to hike while in Alaska. God created both but a backpack is more me.
3) Elliptical Machine vs. Treadmill
Treadmill I love to run and miss it. I’m still working on the knee.
4) Spring vs. Autumn
Both are great but autumn has the wonderful smell of leaves and rest for the earth.
5) Milk Chocolate vs. Dark Chocolate
Dark chocolate do I need to explain why?
6) Interstate vs. Scenic highway
Take the time to enjoy the road less traveled. It’s worth the journey
7) Savage tan vs. SPF50
SPF50 plus I don’t look like I’m almost 48 and I intend to keep it the way by staying out of the sun.
8) Being sad vs. Being scared
I’ve been scared a bit. ;-} In my life and it isn’t fun. Sadness is something I over come rather well.
9) 2 ten dollar bills vs. 1 twenty dollar bill
I want all of the money. But a larger bill makes you think more.
10) Birkenstocks vs. Crocks
I have crocks in 100 plus degrees they are hot so I want to try something new
11) Bad odor vs. Bad taste
I smell stinky people at work. I have fans blowing on me and at least once a day some stinky man stands in front of it. Plus some don’t worry about breath. However, I would have to taste something bad.
12) Ripped pants vs. Wet shirt
Wet shirt is easy to dry and I might win. ;-}
13) Belching vs. Flatulence
Come on a burp is easy to forgive and less embarrassing
14) Chicken salad sandwich vs. Tuna salad sandwich
Chicken salad when done right is so yummy. Walnuts, cranberries, etc. I know what I want for lunch
15) Classic styles vs. Trendy styles
Classic I’m too old to be trendy. Plus I never really was trendy. I’ve just gotta be me.
16) Old friend vs. New friend
Funny about this one both have been a blessing to me lately but the old one is a treasure to hold on to.
17) Dolphin vs. Porpoise
Dolphin I don’t know why. Could be becausse I've been closer to dolphins.
18) Water slide vs. Roller coaster
Roller coaster. I like the rush the ups and downs and the metaphor of life that comes to mind. Plus I don’t end up in a pool that other kids have warmed.
19) Jules Verne vs. Robert Louis Stevenson
Jules Verne is a must read. But I do like Stevenson.
20) Goatee vs. Soul Patch
Soul patch. So hot!
21) Being the recipient of a thoughtful gesture vs. Being the recipient of a compliment
Both are nice but when I’m given a gift I feel that I need to do something back and feel guilty when I can’t.
22) Nap on the couch vs. Nap in a hammock
Couch because a hammock means I’m sleeping outside during the day and I get sick and stuff.
23) Holidays vs. Vacation
Vacation because I get to explore a new world.
24) Aisle vs. Window
Window means I can see the world
25) Slapstick vs. Wit
Wit means you have intelligence
26) Logic vs. Emotion
You need balance on this one but I picked emotion.
27) Whipped cream vs. Cool Whip
Whipped cream taste is everything
28) High School Reunions vs. Family Reunions
I see my family a lot so high school, I was class clown, with the paper staff, yearbook photographer and assistant editor, a cheerleader (For a boy named Bill), and got along with all the groups in my class. I’d love to see them again.
29) ALF vs. ET
ALF the wit was great ET was odd.
30) Canadians vs. Australians
(Not taking sides)
31) Gifts vs. Gift Certificates
I’ve been burned so let me do the shopping and I’ll make it something special or needed.
32) Jet skiing vs. Water skiing
Because it’s a summer sport I’ll be in the cabin cooking for you folks
33) Yardwork vs. Housework
I’d love to do the yardwork but the summer is out. So it’s housework hmmm clearly I haven’t do either.
34) Ostentatious vs. Precocious
Precocious. Come on you have to know why
35) Phone call vs. Email
I love to talk. Kevin knows that. ;-} Those who encounter me at 6am know it. The guy on the help line for the cable company knows. I made him laugh. A good thing for a call center dude.
Call me.
36) Winning the lottery vs. Finding buried treasure
God let me know that I will not ever win the lottery or win at the casino. Buried treasure is an adventure. I’ll take the adventure anytime.
37) Sweating vs. Shivering
Shivering I’m a winter gal. I don't have a winter coat because I like being cold.
38) “Oh no, you di-unt.” vs. “Don’t even go there.”
“Oh no, you di-unt.” Its’ fun to say
39) Blue ink vs. Black ink
Blue is bold
40) Ukelele vs. Bag pipes
Bag pipes
41) Rainbows vs. Sunbeams
Sunbeams. I love to see them. However, sliding down the rainbow from the mist is a good thing.
42) The sound of your own voice vs. The way you look in photos
All the world is a stage and I want better lighting. The sound of me.
43) Extremely firm handshake vs. Extremely weak handshake
Firm a weak one is icky feeling
44) Runny nose vs. Nagging cough
I can blow my nose
45) Packing vs. Unpacking
Where am I going? Clearly from the way things look here packing.
46) A hole in the toe of your sock vs. A hole in the seat of your underwear
I can’t walk around with my toe poking out. I can cover my bottom with my pants and you can't see.
47) Zoos vs. Botanical gardens
Zoo. I love the Tulsa zoo it has a special place in my heart I took classes and so did my kids.
48) Trip to the dentist vs. Tax day
Dentist I’ve had a bit of work done and will need a bit more.
49) Awkward comment vs. Awkward silence
Awkward silence. Because I just made the comment and just letting it go is easier.
50) Too much Rich vs. Too little Rich
We love the Rich!
Wait a minute. Were #49 and #50 redundant?
No I said something that made everyone shut up.
Diabolical Genius said...
"Oh no, you di-unt." The first, but I'm sure not the last, preference for less Rich. This is obviously your lucky week then. ;-)Wasn't a real question. Just a thinly-veiled jab at the R-man. (Much like above.)Interesting that you prefer bad odor to bad taste, but belching over flatulence. You are an enigma shrouded in mystery and wrapped in a riddle, Milly. But the Diabolical Genius sees all.Not taking sides on Canadians vs. Australians? Hmm. So you clearly side with the Swiss then.More detailed analysis to come.
I feel that I was able to delve into who I was in doing this. Yes now with their help I can save a ton of cash on therapy.
Thank you dudes!
http://pearceandstory.blogspot.com/2009/07/versus.html
1) Movie theater Junior Mints vs. Movie theater Goobers
Junior Mints-Chocolate and mint duh this is an easy one.
Kevin rent from Red Box for a dollar and purchase candy at Walgreens for a dollar only two bucks for a nice movie night.
2) Trip to the Beach vs. Trip to the Mountains
I love the beach and my kids could spend the day on the sand. I’m allergic to the sun so I have to give in to itching and tossing my lunch. The mountains are my pick. I wanted to hike while in Alaska. God created both but a backpack is more me.
3) Elliptical Machine vs. Treadmill
Treadmill I love to run and miss it. I’m still working on the knee.
4) Spring vs. Autumn
Both are great but autumn has the wonderful smell of leaves and rest for the earth.
5) Milk Chocolate vs. Dark Chocolate
Dark chocolate do I need to explain why?
6) Interstate vs. Scenic highway
Take the time to enjoy the road less traveled. It’s worth the journey
7) Savage tan vs. SPF50
SPF50 plus I don’t look like I’m almost 48 and I intend to keep it the way by staying out of the sun.
8) Being sad vs. Being scared
I’ve been scared a bit. ;-} In my life and it isn’t fun. Sadness is something I over come rather well.
9) 2 ten dollar bills vs. 1 twenty dollar bill
I want all of the money. But a larger bill makes you think more.
10) Birkenstocks vs. Crocks
I have crocks in 100 plus degrees they are hot so I want to try something new
11) Bad odor vs. Bad taste
I smell stinky people at work. I have fans blowing on me and at least once a day some stinky man stands in front of it. Plus some don’t worry about breath. However, I would have to taste something bad.
12) Ripped pants vs. Wet shirt
Wet shirt is easy to dry and I might win. ;-}
13) Belching vs. Flatulence
Come on a burp is easy to forgive and less embarrassing
14) Chicken salad sandwich vs. Tuna salad sandwich
Chicken salad when done right is so yummy. Walnuts, cranberries, etc. I know what I want for lunch
15) Classic styles vs. Trendy styles
Classic I’m too old to be trendy. Plus I never really was trendy. I’ve just gotta be me.
16) Old friend vs. New friend
Funny about this one both have been a blessing to me lately but the old one is a treasure to hold on to.
17) Dolphin vs. Porpoise
Dolphin I don’t know why. Could be becausse I've been closer to dolphins.
18) Water slide vs. Roller coaster
Roller coaster. I like the rush the ups and downs and the metaphor of life that comes to mind. Plus I don’t end up in a pool that other kids have warmed.
19) Jules Verne vs. Robert Louis Stevenson
Jules Verne is a must read. But I do like Stevenson.
20) Goatee vs. Soul Patch
Soul patch. So hot!
21) Being the recipient of a thoughtful gesture vs. Being the recipient of a compliment
Both are nice but when I’m given a gift I feel that I need to do something back and feel guilty when I can’t.
22) Nap on the couch vs. Nap in a hammock
Couch because a hammock means I’m sleeping outside during the day and I get sick and stuff.
23) Holidays vs. Vacation
Vacation because I get to explore a new world.
24) Aisle vs. Window
Window means I can see the world
25) Slapstick vs. Wit
Wit means you have intelligence
26) Logic vs. Emotion
You need balance on this one but I picked emotion.
27) Whipped cream vs. Cool Whip
Whipped cream taste is everything
28) High School Reunions vs. Family Reunions
I see my family a lot so high school, I was class clown, with the paper staff, yearbook photographer and assistant editor, a cheerleader (For a boy named Bill), and got along with all the groups in my class. I’d love to see them again.
29) ALF vs. ET
ALF the wit was great ET was odd.
30) Canadians vs. Australians
(Not taking sides)
31) Gifts vs. Gift Certificates
I’ve been burned so let me do the shopping and I’ll make it something special or needed.
32) Jet skiing vs. Water skiing
Because it’s a summer sport I’ll be in the cabin cooking for you folks
33) Yardwork vs. Housework
I’d love to do the yardwork but the summer is out. So it’s housework hmmm clearly I haven’t do either.
34) Ostentatious vs. Precocious
Precocious. Come on you have to know why
35) Phone call vs. Email
I love to talk. Kevin knows that. ;-} Those who encounter me at 6am know it. The guy on the help line for the cable company knows. I made him laugh. A good thing for a call center dude.
Call me.
36) Winning the lottery vs. Finding buried treasure
God let me know that I will not ever win the lottery or win at the casino. Buried treasure is an adventure. I’ll take the adventure anytime.
37) Sweating vs. Shivering
Shivering I’m a winter gal. I don't have a winter coat because I like being cold.
38) “Oh no, you di-unt.” vs. “Don’t even go there.”
“Oh no, you di-unt.” Its’ fun to say
39) Blue ink vs. Black ink
Blue is bold
40) Ukelele vs. Bag pipes
Bag pipes
41) Rainbows vs. Sunbeams
Sunbeams. I love to see them. However, sliding down the rainbow from the mist is a good thing.
42) The sound of your own voice vs. The way you look in photos
All the world is a stage and I want better lighting. The sound of me.
43) Extremely firm handshake vs. Extremely weak handshake
Firm a weak one is icky feeling
44) Runny nose vs. Nagging cough
I can blow my nose
45) Packing vs. Unpacking
Where am I going? Clearly from the way things look here packing.
46) A hole in the toe of your sock vs. A hole in the seat of your underwear
I can’t walk around with my toe poking out. I can cover my bottom with my pants and you can't see.
47) Zoos vs. Botanical gardens
Zoo. I love the Tulsa zoo it has a special place in my heart I took classes and so did my kids.
48) Trip to the dentist vs. Tax day
Dentist I’ve had a bit of work done and will need a bit more.
49) Awkward comment vs. Awkward silence
Awkward silence. Because I just made the comment and just letting it go is easier.
50) Too much Rich vs. Too little Rich
We love the Rich!
Wait a minute. Were #49 and #50 redundant?
No I said something that made everyone shut up.
Diabolical Genius said...
"Oh no, you di-unt." The first, but I'm sure not the last, preference for less Rich. This is obviously your lucky week then. ;-)Wasn't a real question. Just a thinly-veiled jab at the R-man. (Much like above.)Interesting that you prefer bad odor to bad taste, but belching over flatulence. You are an enigma shrouded in mystery and wrapped in a riddle, Milly. But the Diabolical Genius sees all.Not taking sides on Canadians vs. Australians? Hmm. So you clearly side with the Swiss then.More detailed analysis to come.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Monday, July 06, 2009
Cool Cool Alaska
We are back in Oklahoma
I'll have a bunch more photos and things to say after I rest.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Mind Candy
I’ve been reading several books written by the same author, no, I won’t give the names of the books because they are “Mind candy”. You know the ones I’m talking about. You need not give a huge amount of care to the story. I do find myself enjoying these quick reads. One thing that has occurred to me as I read these fictional history books is that we don’t enjoy touch the way that we use to. A simple act of touching ones hand when a man would hand a lady an object sent a thought of passion though them. Think of the last time you washed dishes with your loved one. Try to leave the dishwasher out of it and do them the old fashioned way. A glance, a touch, and a shared conversation.
Don’t worry I’m reading others also. One is so deep that I need time to relax and process. My son enjoys the subject so I have him to discuss the issues with. I’ve cried over what happened and felt like putting my fist into a wall at times. So “Mind Candy” helps me to not climb in and hang out for too long.
Books have always been a huge thing in my family. They are handed down from generation to generation. I read less them my siblings and I read every day. We love those pages and devour those words. I usually have two to three books in the works. Having just finished one a few moments ago I’m about to start another. Hmmmm more “Mind Candy”? What to do!
I love to talk about the books that I and other have read and I love haring those I enjoy. I suppose that comes with the love of those wonders.
We discuss them at work.
The other night we were talking about books when one of my coworkers said that she loved Twilight. I couldn’t hold back on how I feel about those things. I don’t like the glorifying of evil. She pointed out that vampires aren’t real. I told her About Vlad the Impaler, he wasn’t the blood sucking vampire that legend has made him out to be. I hate that satan has cleverly woven himself into books that our teens love. I don’t have any Harry Potter books in my home because my son doesn’t want to read them. He won’t want those Twilight ones either.
One of my regular guys to visit me no matter where they put me at work asked me
“Do you read?”
“Yep I’m one of them educated women.”
“Then I’ll bring ya a book.”
He went to his truck for the book.
When he handed it to me he told me that he was in it.
I can’t wait to read it. He’s a car guy, one that would make Salgoud feel at home. I wonder if that’s what they wrote about him.
I feel blessed to have been raised by people who love books.
I love that I have friends who enjoy them.
I’m thankful that God has given me the time to read.
Don’t worry I’m reading others also. One is so deep that I need time to relax and process. My son enjoys the subject so I have him to discuss the issues with. I’ve cried over what happened and felt like putting my fist into a wall at times. So “Mind Candy” helps me to not climb in and hang out for too long.
Books have always been a huge thing in my family. They are handed down from generation to generation. I read less them my siblings and I read every day. We love those pages and devour those words. I usually have two to three books in the works. Having just finished one a few moments ago I’m about to start another. Hmmmm more “Mind Candy”? What to do!
I love to talk about the books that I and other have read and I love haring those I enjoy. I suppose that comes with the love of those wonders.
We discuss them at work.
The other night we were talking about books when one of my coworkers said that she loved Twilight. I couldn’t hold back on how I feel about those things. I don’t like the glorifying of evil. She pointed out that vampires aren’t real. I told her About Vlad the Impaler, he wasn’t the blood sucking vampire that legend has made him out to be. I hate that satan has cleverly woven himself into books that our teens love. I don’t have any Harry Potter books in my home because my son doesn’t want to read them. He won’t want those Twilight ones either.
One of my regular guys to visit me no matter where they put me at work asked me
“Do you read?”
“Yep I’m one of them educated women.”
“Then I’ll bring ya a book.”
He went to his truck for the book.
When he handed it to me he told me that he was in it.
I can’t wait to read it. He’s a car guy, one that would make Salgoud feel at home. I wonder if that’s what they wrote about him.
I feel blessed to have been raised by people who love books.
I love that I have friends who enjoy them.
I’m thankful that God has given me the time to read.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Face it
Last weekend my dad threw another fish fry. I’m not sure how many people were there but I guesstamated at around 50. Many were faces that I hadn’t seen in years several I didn’t know.
Faces are awesome and a blessing from God.
When my cousin, a professional wildlife photographer, said he wanted his wife and I to pose together she asked if he would remove the wrinkles.
I looked over at Miss M. and smiled.
Look at that face and those hands.
Hands that feed children who wanted to grow up too fast or needed love.
Hands that taught them how to cook a meal for children to come.
I wonder how many young people went home and proudly showed a parent that they could cook and clean.
Look at her face, I know I did when I ran away from home that one and only time. . .all that way up the hill for love, a coke, and candy then to be sent home.
How many children did that sweet smile comfort when they felt lost?
I look at that face and hold those hands and feel blessed.
No, I won’t be doing much to stop the lines from my face that God had blessed me with.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Don't worry be happy
Cool quote from a third grader:
This one is sure makes one that I overheard a third grader say. Pregnant women can’t drive.
I had no idea did you?
I may have missed a bit of it because they didn’t use a sound system.
It’s not what we did in the past, it’s not what we will do in the future, it’s what comes from within.
A nice bit of awesomeness today!
***Keep reading**********************I have more to say***
Luke 12:22-34 (Today's New International Version)
Do Not Worry 22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
27 "Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33 Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
I needed to hear this one today.
It’s cool how God rolls like that. I opened an email and there it is Don’t worry be happy.
The rain is tapping on the window I have music playing softly. I have to be at Miss Littles’ school soon but for now God is whispering to me Do not be afraid.
This one is sure makes one that I overheard a third grader say. Pregnant women can’t drive.
I had no idea did you?
I may have missed a bit of it because they didn’t use a sound system.
It’s not what we did in the past, it’s not what we will do in the future, it’s what comes from within.
A nice bit of awesomeness today!
***Keep reading**********************I have more to say***
Luke 12:22-34 (Today's New International Version)
Do Not Worry 22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
27 "Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33 Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
I needed to hear this one today.
It’s cool how God rolls like that. I opened an email and there it is Don’t worry be happy.
The rain is tapping on the window I have music playing softly. I have to be at Miss Littles’ school soon but for now God is whispering to me Do not be afraid.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Life is good today and the sun came out to play.
I have laundry to tackle, and a house to clean, and the car is a disaster
But life is good
Yesterday the news wasn’t so bad from my son’s surgeon and we are cautiously optimistic
I took the ladies to Michaels last night to make mother’s day projects
One of Miss Littles friends is over for tea fun
One former friend wants to play with them but she was ugly to Miss Littles so the ladies told her they wouldn’t play with her anymore. Setting the differences aside my daughter invited her to play so giggles makeovers on the porch. What a great thing to do. Miss Littles has shown a lot of love for people by taking each day as a new.
On a very down side one of my guys, a regular customer, needs prayers. His wife has three kids of cancer and isn’t taking chemo well. He’s not feeling well and is showing signs of stress. One of the things he has can be caused by stress, it happened to me
But life is good
Yesterday the news wasn’t so bad from my son’s surgeon and we are cautiously optimistic
I took the ladies to Michaels last night to make mother’s day projects
One of Miss Littles friends is over for tea fun
One former friend wants to play with them but she was ugly to Miss Littles so the ladies told her they wouldn’t play with her anymore. Setting the differences aside my daughter invited her to play so giggles makeovers on the porch. What a great thing to do. Miss Littles has shown a lot of love for people by taking each day as a new.
On a very down side one of my guys, a regular customer, needs prayers. His wife has three kids of cancer and isn’t taking chemo well. He’s not feeling well and is showing signs of stress. One of the things he has can be caused by stress, it happened to me
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Quote for life
Anger is a killing thing: it kills the man who angers, for each rage leaves him less than he had been before - it takes something from him.
Louis L'Amour
It takes a lot from those who are involved. I'm working on myself and my children. When we hit a wall or find a problem I ask "How could (I) you have handled that situation better.
We are learning to change or mindsets. We still mishandle situations but we are trying.
Louis L'Amour
It takes a lot from those who are involved. I'm working on myself and my children. When we hit a wall or find a problem I ask "How could (I) you have handled that situation better.
We are learning to change or mindsets. We still mishandle situations but we are trying.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Back and read this
The boy is back in school!
He's not happy to be but I am glad to see him on a cane and back in school.
For some tear jerk'n reading
http://notassweetasiusedtobe.blogspot.com/
Ok so I cry.
If Danny still read us he'd cry I think I'll send it to him
He's not happy to be but I am glad to see him on a cane and back in school.
For some tear jerk'n reading
http://notassweetasiusedtobe.blogspot.com/
Ok so I cry.
If Danny still read us he'd cry I think I'll send it to him
Monday, April 13, 2009
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
It is unacceptable!
Nearly one in five women over the age of eighteen who are married or in a similar relationship reported being emotionally or physically abused by a male partner.
I wanted to grab a galvanized pipe today when I saw a friend’s arms. She was telling me how her husband went off on her while putting lotion on her arms. I could see his hand prints on her arms.
I could feel the rage in me grow.
Why do these men think that a bad sex night or a disagreement is a reason to hurt verbally and physically?
She’s afraid.
She’s confused.
I told her that I was the same way when I came to the conclusion that my marriage was over.
I told her that I couldn’t tell anyone for a while but that I would sit in the sound booth and cry while “G” did almost all the work. He tells me he didn’t notice.
I cried on my way to work a lot.
No one could see it.
I remember the moment that I knew I had to get out and the day I made a call for an attorney.
I think she needs to find the bottom before she gets out.
I pray the he doesn’t kill her.
I pray that she can take his words and toss them away.
It‘s hard but it can be done.
Get out and get help if you are in an abusive relationship!
I wanted to grab a galvanized pipe today when I saw a friend’s arms. She was telling me how her husband went off on her while putting lotion on her arms. I could see his hand prints on her arms.
I could feel the rage in me grow.
Why do these men think that a bad sex night or a disagreement is a reason to hurt verbally and physically?
She’s afraid.
She’s confused.
I told her that I was the same way when I came to the conclusion that my marriage was over.
I told her that I couldn’t tell anyone for a while but that I would sit in the sound booth and cry while “G” did almost all the work. He tells me he didn’t notice.
I cried on my way to work a lot.
No one could see it.
I remember the moment that I knew I had to get out and the day I made a call for an attorney.
I think she needs to find the bottom before she gets out.
I pray the he doesn’t kill her.
I pray that she can take his words and toss them away.
It‘s hard but it can be done.
Get out and get help if you are in an abusive relationship!
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Heroes in my life
Man my son is a strong guy!
Today in PT one of the nice ladies asked how the surgeon’s visit went. I know my look to her told a lot my son explained it in such a grown up way. I want to cry scream and yell but here is this young man holding it together.
I’ve told him that he could yell and cry if he needed to when we left the doctor’s office. Yesterday after the news we met up with my dad and sister for lunch. They had questions but neither of us wanted to talk about it. The fact that he was telling her today was a good sign to me because I knew he understands what could be happening to his body. It was devastating to hear that the little white strip on the films is a sign of restricted blood flow. I don’t doubt the doctor because I hear that he is the best around. I felt speechless as I looked in the doctor’s blue eyes thinking say something better. He didn’t say that the ball is going to die for sure. Miracles I want them.
If you have the time pop over to my sis-n-law's blog to see another wonderful person God has in my life
http://notassweetasiusedtobe.blogspot.com/
Today in PT one of the nice ladies asked how the surgeon’s visit went. I know my look to her told a lot my son explained it in such a grown up way. I want to cry scream and yell but here is this young man holding it together.
I’ve told him that he could yell and cry if he needed to when we left the doctor’s office. Yesterday after the news we met up with my dad and sister for lunch. They had questions but neither of us wanted to talk about it. The fact that he was telling her today was a good sign to me because I knew he understands what could be happening to his body. It was devastating to hear that the little white strip on the films is a sign of restricted blood flow. I don’t doubt the doctor because I hear that he is the best around. I felt speechless as I looked in the doctor’s blue eyes thinking say something better. He didn’t say that the ball is going to die for sure. Miracles I want them.
If you have the time pop over to my sis-n-law's blog to see another wonderful person God has in my life
http://notassweetasiusedtobe.blogspot.com/
Sunday, March 29, 2009
It’s going to be a crazy week
. . . so I thought I might need to say something before it takes off.
My dad will be in the hospital
&
My son will get news from his surgeon
Peace and prayers are needed.
Life is about change and adapting. God has given us the tools needed and so I will use them no matter the path.
Some days I want to chase butterflies.
I want to dance in the rain
I want to sleep and dream
I want to lay in the green grass and day dream the day away
But alas my alarm sounds and I get to living in the real world.
I hope you have a nice week full of good wishes
My dad will be in the hospital
&
My son will get news from his surgeon
Peace and prayers are needed.
Life is about change and adapting. God has given us the tools needed and so I will use them no matter the path.
Some days I want to chase butterflies.
I want to dance in the rain
I want to sleep and dream
I want to lay in the green grass and day dream the day away
But alas my alarm sounds and I get to living in the real world.
I hope you have a nice week full of good wishes
Monday, March 23, 2009
Book of Face
I have a facebook and I have very little idea of what to do with it.
If you know I have one and have read it then you can see that I connected with an old friend.
I haven’t seen him in over twenty years. Too cool to see him in photo again.
If you know I have one and have read it then you can see that I connected with an old friend.
I haven’t seen him in over twenty years. Too cool to see him in photo again.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Bits of Tulsa History
The Waterworks Art Studio
Miss Littles took an art class across from this home. I’ve grown up wondering about this place and I’m happy to see that I can take a tour of the cave house. It was said to be built as a restaurant/ speak-easy. But there is no proof because the secret door can’t be found. The place has been there since the 1920’s. I hear it’s haunted. I also hear that Pretty Boy Floyd like the place.
I don't work very far from the art studio so I took some time to explore. I'll be looking taking more photos of the places that caught my eye in the future.
This is the oldest house in Tulsa still in existence. It sure tells us how much we don't need to live.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
eight days and standing
I thought that I needed to let those who care know that I’m still out and about in this crazy world but I really don’t have much to say or time to say it.
My son is bugging me because he wants this computer and I have yet to cook dinner. Pasta so no big deal but I need to get it going.
I just finished day eight at work so I’m fried and my knee is a bit sore. I kind of lost it over one of the department heads attitude I’ve gone to the first level then the second then the third and this week’s incident sent me over the edge so I went to the next level. I must have looked rather miffed when the ASM walked by because when I said I wanted to talk to him when he had time he stopped and came right to me. He listed and assured me he’d talk to him. Today I made that same department head deal with an issue by standing my ground. The person he asked about it stood her ground so he had to do it. I doubt he did the right thing but I still stood my ground. One small win for me. :-}
Life is about knowing when to stand your ground and knowing when to walk away isn’t it?
My son is bugging me because he wants this computer and I have yet to cook dinner. Pasta so no big deal but I need to get it going.
I just finished day eight at work so I’m fried and my knee is a bit sore. I kind of lost it over one of the department heads attitude I’ve gone to the first level then the second then the third and this week’s incident sent me over the edge so I went to the next level. I must have looked rather miffed when the ASM walked by because when I said I wanted to talk to him when he had time he stopped and came right to me. He listed and assured me he’d talk to him. Today I made that same department head deal with an issue by standing my ground. The person he asked about it stood her ground so he had to do it. I doubt he did the right thing but I still stood my ground. One small win for me. :-}
Life is about knowing when to stand your ground and knowing when to walk away isn’t it?
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