Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Turning back to HIm

When you’re addicted to something you’re just that. Everything in you pulls you towards the evil that calls to you. Not long ago I suggested one big birthday party for some of my friends. One loved the idea then began telling me where she felt we should go. It sounds like a nice place only it has a bar. That’s not a problem for me because I can walk away from it. The problem is that I’ll need to make an excuse for not drinking. Just the thought of saying it to people sends a panic through me. I know that they love me and they will understand. I think it’s the forever odd moments when they offer wine at their home. I’ve had a glass there, I was sick after so I won’t do that again. I believe that God was letting me know to stay away from it. I don’t think my husband even knows about the addition. It’s something I have never really spoken of except here in blog world. Why hide it? I’m sure you are all asking that question. Because it's my battle I fight it when it creeps it’s ugly head up. I’ve weathered hard times without stopping in a bar and I feel confident that I will never order vodka again.





Danny once said he didn’t know why God takes it away from some and not others. I think He gives some of us the strength to walk away from the bar, others He takes the want for it completely away. I wonder if she ever looked at God when she walked over to the dealer, did she look back hoping for Him to stop her?


I don’t think she did in her desperation to end her pain.

Now her journey will bring more pain then her heart has ever felt.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

additions are similar to sin in this way. we always need help to rid ourselve of them. we need to confess and repent, the more friends who know about our additions the more support we have.of course there are those who judge instead of support, but can we consider them friends? friends don't judge friends.
God bless you friend Milly.

Anonymous said...

Addictions have a tendency to completely control our lives if we're not constantly in touch with God.

Even when we know better, an addiction can somehow take control of us, and manipulate our minds so that God, for a time, is put on the back burner while we serve our addiction.

A young woman in our church has a history of bad choices, usually because of her addictions; while she seems to try hard, she fails most of the time. We still love her and pray for her recovery, and I think with time she will respond.

I'm not sure that any addiction is completely removed from us. Some people seem to be more successful that others in this fight, but they just may work at it harder.

The lady you spoke to with the drug problem is in my prayers; sometimes there are things that only God can heal.

codepoke said...

I’ve weathered hard times without stopping in a bar and I feel confident that I will never order vodka again.

What a perfect sentence. Praise the Lord for all the pain He's enabled you to avoid. And praise the Lord for your confidence. May He keep you all your years!

I wonder if she ever looked at God when she walked over to the dealer, did she look back hoping for Him to stop her?

Shivers.

Except for the grace of God....

I know that I don't have the strength to overcome my addictions. May the Lord give you wisdom to be a good friend to her, honest and comforting as the Lord gives you grace. I'm glad you're there for her.

Maeghan said...

When you’re addicted to something you’re just that. Everything in you pulls you towards the evil that calls to you.

So so true. It pulls and tugs at us at the slightest chance. Which is why a really close relationship with God is so crucial for us in our lives here on earth full of temptations. To be filled with the Spirit and bearing His fruits, one of which is self control (Gal 5:23). But easier said than done, but it still must be done.

Support from family and close friends would be invaluable. My prayers will be with your friend.