Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Life is what it is

The last couple of weeks have been stressful where the ex and I are concerned. He seems to want to fight about everything. I’m angry that he pushed my buttons so hard that I flipped. I win at nothing when I lose my temper. I’ve hated the way that he has twisted the truth and flat said things that aren’t true. He wants for me to fall into line, his line and I won’t do it. At one point he yelled “You’re ruining my life.” That made me laugh. I don’t want to be a part of his life at all. I’ve prayed for his marriage. I pray for him. I want to stop fighting. I’m letting my attorney go as soon as all the divorce paperwork is done. No it isn’t yet I waiting on his side.

How do I stand firm?

How do I cope?

GOD

Divorce, broken hip, heart surgery, knee surgery, and cancer
We had a wreck of a year and face more troubles.

My sister hasn’t kicked the cancer yet and my ex still pushes my buttons.

I’ve learned that we actually do teach people how we want to be treated. I’m trying to retrain myself and him. At times I picture a rolled up news paper. :-}

So last night I gave it UP (Rather flung it up) and went to sleep and this morning I woke feeling blessed and happy.

I know how to handle it all now. God spoke to me in my sleep.

I’m also working on being healthy. I eat cactus . . . yes cactus. My joints feel great, I’ve lost more than 11 lbs and I have pep in my step. It’s not all from cactus, I’m eating healthier. I’m going to join a gym when I can afford it. I’d love to take boxing. Honestly.

Okay so my house looks like a disaster most of the time and I have just enough money to squeak by. But I have a home and I have enough money to take care of us.
I also want to go on another date with a nice man. I went a few months ago and it was very nice. When God is ready for me to meet him I will still I’m ready to meet a nice man.

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

. . . . . So how are you my friends?

3 comments:

Kansas Bob said...

I liked this Milly:

"I win at nothing when I lose my temper."

You are a very wise woman.. I admire the way that you are dealing with all the stuff in your life.

We are okay these days. PT has helped Ann. We are hoping to travel south in a month or so.

Love and blessings, Bob

Barbara said...

Hi Milly! I am so far behind in reading blogs. It sounds like you are doing good with the help of God even though so much is going on around you!!! Way to go.

Let me tell you this: ANY GUY that gets to go on a date with you is one LUCKY DUDE. I hope that you meet someone nice that sweeps you off your feet (meaning: he cherishes you and recognizes what a precious gem of a woman you are! and that you think he's HOT).

Love ya,
Barbara

Mark (under construction) said...

Don't wrestle nestle a wise old lady once said.