Yes she needed a bathThursday, August 27, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Pull it-Drag it-Hide from it. It just won't go away
Last night as I listened to a friend and gave advice I thought about how we hold on to our childhood mindsets without really realizing it.
That is until. . . .
Warning if you are anti same sex relationships then stop reading. I will hold my feeling about the issue and ask that you also do the same the post is about relationship and mind set not same sex ideas.
My friend is a nice young woman who is stable, generous, and dependable. She gave a friend a kidney knowing it would compromise her life, jobs, and hurt her financially. She holds down three jobs to support herself.
Last night we sat at the break table and talked about her new relationship and what was working and what wasn’t. As I listened to her talk I heard her say it wasn’t expectable to be gay growing up. There it is one of the reasons she has trouble relaxing into a relationship. She shook her head no but I pointed out what she had said. She grew up in a very religious family with parents who didn’t show affection at all to each other. Her mother was treated like a possession. No wonder she is having trouble in a relationship.
We were interrupted because she was on the clock and our boss called looking for her. It’s all good he loves us.
Get past how you feel about same sex relationships and think about how we drag our past into our now. Yes some of them get dragged. We know we have them in tow and we still take them with us knowing it’s going to wreck things. It’s like we can’t help ourselves. We clean out the closet and still place them in the keep pile.
Have you ever found yourself pulling it into your relationship? I'd bet you have. You may not even know it. My parents had a great relationship. They openly kissed and told each other I love you. I wanted that with my ex. We were open about kissing at times but not I love you. I had to say it first and then was crushed when he failed to say it back. It killed me to be the first every night to say I love you. I tried a few times to hold out and to see if he would say it first. He wouldn't and my heart was broken each night. He's say it after sex making it even worse. Guys we ladies want to hear it out of the bedroom not just in the bedroom.
Sometimes they hide inside our brains tucked up under that little end table that grandma had with a hand carved pineapple base. You are just hanging out with someone you love and WHAM your mom’s voice is coming out of your mouth. You find yourself saying “That’s how my dad did it.” BTW your loved one will and is allowed to make that snappy come back “If you know it’s the way he did it and its wrong then change it.” If only you could! I know my ex has said that to me and I have made the come back and nothing got changed.
I told my friend that she is right in getting therapy. I never finished my degree so I am not the expert on this one. I still try years of classes and blogging seems to make me feel like I should be able to speak up.
So how do I let go of all those relationship eating things? I have no idea today but I’ll know if I ever meet a man that makes me think about relationships that I'll need to shed myself of them. I have a feeling that they will still show up. I'll still have moments of distrust from being in a bad marriage. God bless the man that can take it in and help me through it day by day.
That is until. . . .
Warning if you are anti same sex relationships then stop reading. I will hold my feeling about the issue and ask that you also do the same the post is about relationship and mind set not same sex ideas.
My friend is a nice young woman who is stable, generous, and dependable. She gave a friend a kidney knowing it would compromise her life, jobs, and hurt her financially. She holds down three jobs to support herself.
Last night we sat at the break table and talked about her new relationship and what was working and what wasn’t. As I listened to her talk I heard her say it wasn’t expectable to be gay growing up. There it is one of the reasons she has trouble relaxing into a relationship. She shook her head no but I pointed out what she had said. She grew up in a very religious family with parents who didn’t show affection at all to each other. Her mother was treated like a possession. No wonder she is having trouble in a relationship.
We were interrupted because she was on the clock and our boss called looking for her. It’s all good he loves us.
Get past how you feel about same sex relationships and think about how we drag our past into our now. Yes some of them get dragged. We know we have them in tow and we still take them with us knowing it’s going to wreck things. It’s like we can’t help ourselves. We clean out the closet and still place them in the keep pile.
Have you ever found yourself pulling it into your relationship? I'd bet you have. You may not even know it. My parents had a great relationship. They openly kissed and told each other I love you. I wanted that with my ex. We were open about kissing at times but not I love you. I had to say it first and then was crushed when he failed to say it back. It killed me to be the first every night to say I love you. I tried a few times to hold out and to see if he would say it first. He wouldn't and my heart was broken each night. He's say it after sex making it even worse. Guys we ladies want to hear it out of the bedroom not just in the bedroom.
Sometimes they hide inside our brains tucked up under that little end table that grandma had with a hand carved pineapple base. You are just hanging out with someone you love and WHAM your mom’s voice is coming out of your mouth. You find yourself saying “That’s how my dad did it.” BTW your loved one will and is allowed to make that snappy come back “If you know it’s the way he did it and its wrong then change it.” If only you could! I know my ex has said that to me and I have made the come back and nothing got changed.
I told my friend that she is right in getting therapy. I never finished my degree so I am not the expert on this one. I still try years of classes and blogging seems to make me feel like I should be able to speak up.
So how do I let go of all those relationship eating things? I have no idea today but I’ll know if I ever meet a man that makes me think about relationships that I'll need to shed myself of them. I have a feeling that they will still show up. I'll still have moments of distrust from being in a bad marriage. God bless the man that can take it in and help me through it day by day.
Friday, August 21, 2009
I'm sick of the pink hospital
We're in the ER due to a new issue with Memz.
CANCER SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CANCER SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Fun questions
Here's some fun ones to answer if you want or not.
1. What time did you get up this morning? 4:20 am
2. How do you like your steak? Well done
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Jo Bros 3D
4. What is your favorite TV show? The Big Bang Theory
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Alaska but I love it here also because I have friends and family around
6. What did you have for breakfast? I was a bad girl but try’n to kill a head banger. Naked juice and donuts
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike? Baked fish
9. Favorite Place to Eat? Taco Bueno, Pei Wei, Lone Star, Logans etc
10. Favorite salad dressing? Depends on my mood and what kind of salad
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? Equinox
12. Your favorite thing to wear? Jeans, sneakers, a shirt.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Hmmm so many places to go
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Definitely 1/2 full!! But wondering who drank half?
15. Where would you want to retire? I get to retire!!!!!!!!!
16. Favorite time of day? Sunrise
17. Where were you born? Tulsa Oklahoma
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? I’m a mood watcher depends on how I feel and what’s on
19. Who do you think will not tag you back? Those who don't want to
20. Person you expect to tag you back first? See number 19
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? everyone!!
22. Bird watcher? Is one flying over me now?!!!!!?
23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning
24. Do you have any pets? Yes a kitten will be here soon. If it’s a girl Khloey if it’s a boy Hobbs.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I’d like no more excitement for a while
26. What did you want to be when you were little? Zoologist
27. What is your best childhood memory? Zoo classes
28. Are you a cat or dog person? Both
30. Always wear your seat belt? Yes
31. Been in a car accident? Yes
32. Any pet peeves? Yes several
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Not a pizza snob. I’ll eat almost any kind except Greek because of allergies. Lamb puts me to bed.
34. Favorite Flower? I love them all
35. Favorite ice cream? I love them all
36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bueno
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? zero
38. From whom did you get your last email? An old friend Roger
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? What Dea said credit cards are evil, Use debit cards... I don’t have a credit card.
40. Do anything spontaneous lately? Heh! You asking me!
41. Like your job? LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!
42. Broccoli? Yes! Let do some
43. What was your favorite vacation? Alaska and Disney World
44. Last person you went out to dinner with? Kids
45. What are you listening to right now? TV and my children too bad the kids don’t have a mute button.
46. What is your favorite color? Purple
47. How many tattoos do you have? Zero I see bad ones every day at work
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? None if you want to do it49. What time did you finish this quiz? 8:22pm time for bed
50. Coffee Drinker? Starbucks espresso truffle is dreamy
1. What time did you get up this morning? 4:20 am
2. How do you like your steak? Well done
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Jo Bros 3D
4. What is your favorite TV show? The Big Bang Theory
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Alaska but I love it here also because I have friends and family around
6. What did you have for breakfast? I was a bad girl but try’n to kill a head banger. Naked juice and donuts
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike? Baked fish
9. Favorite Place to Eat? Taco Bueno, Pei Wei, Lone Star, Logans etc
10. Favorite salad dressing? Depends on my mood and what kind of salad
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? Equinox
12. Your favorite thing to wear? Jeans, sneakers, a shirt.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Hmmm so many places to go
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Definitely 1/2 full!! But wondering who drank half?
15. Where would you want to retire? I get to retire!!!!!!!!!
16. Favorite time of day? Sunrise
17. Where were you born? Tulsa Oklahoma
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? I’m a mood watcher depends on how I feel and what’s on
19. Who do you think will not tag you back? Those who don't want to
20. Person you expect to tag you back first? See number 19
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? everyone!!
22. Bird watcher? Is one flying over me now?!!!!!?
23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning
24. Do you have any pets? Yes a kitten will be here soon. If it’s a girl Khloey if it’s a boy Hobbs.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I’d like no more excitement for a while
26. What did you want to be when you were little? Zoologist
27. What is your best childhood memory? Zoo classes
28. Are you a cat or dog person? Both
30. Always wear your seat belt? Yes
31. Been in a car accident? Yes
32. Any pet peeves? Yes several
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Not a pizza snob. I’ll eat almost any kind except Greek because of allergies. Lamb puts me to bed.
34. Favorite Flower? I love them all
35. Favorite ice cream? I love them all
36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bueno
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? zero
38. From whom did you get your last email? An old friend Roger
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? What Dea said credit cards are evil, Use debit cards... I don’t have a credit card.
40. Do anything spontaneous lately? Heh! You asking me!
41. Like your job? LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!
42. Broccoli? Yes! Let do some
43. What was your favorite vacation? Alaska and Disney World
44. Last person you went out to dinner with? Kids
45. What are you listening to right now? TV and my children too bad the kids don’t have a mute button.
46. What is your favorite color? Purple
47. How many tattoos do you have? Zero I see bad ones every day at work
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? None if you want to do it49. What time did you finish this quiz? 8:22pm time for bed
50. Coffee Drinker? Starbucks espresso truffle is dreamy
Friday, August 14, 2009
God hears!
My sister still has cancer but the large tumor isn’t it. It’s also out of her body. We’ve had such a journey so far and many miles to go to rid her body of cancer. I’m preparing the house for her, our family, and friends.
We’ll take it step by step day by day and rejoice in it.
Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.
We’ll take it step by step day by day and rejoice in it.
Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Big Bang funny
I thought we needed a little Sheldon
I can't wear different pajamas. These are my Monday pajamas.
That's all I'm saying
I bought these Star Wars sheets but they turned out to be much too stimulating to be compatible with a good night's sleep. I don't like the way Darth Vader stares at me.
My boy doesn't have that trouble with his pillow case.
Radiation burns -- a little mishap while I was building my own CAT scanner.... In fact, I was briefly able to see the inside of my sister's guinea pig, Snowball, before he caught fire. It led to an interesting expression in our house: "not a snowball's chance in a CAT scanner
Just too funny
That's preposterous! I do not resemble C-3PO. Don't get me wrong, I'm flattered, I just don't see it.
You know you would be too
Now laugh today
From Big Bang Theory
I can't wear different pajamas. These are my Monday pajamas.
That's all I'm saying
I bought these Star Wars sheets but they turned out to be much too stimulating to be compatible with a good night's sleep. I don't like the way Darth Vader stares at me.
My boy doesn't have that trouble with his pillow case.
Radiation burns -- a little mishap while I was building my own CAT scanner.... In fact, I was briefly able to see the inside of my sister's guinea pig, Snowball, before he caught fire. It led to an interesting expression in our house: "not a snowball's chance in a CAT scanner
Just too funny
That's preposterous! I do not resemble C-3PO. Don't get me wrong, I'm flattered, I just don't see it.
You know you would be too
Now laugh today
From Big Bang Theory
Thursday, August 06, 2009
God hear our prayers
The elevator seems like an old friend. I lean back as I ride it up and down.
I know the people taking care of her by name.
I know the cafeteria food all too well and vending has robbed me way too many times.
Between the fear we laugh
Between tears we talk
So many unknowns
Friends call and visit
Flowers, cards, and food
I’m thankful that God sent a soft shoulder to cry on
I know the people taking care of her by name.
I know the cafeteria food all too well and vending has robbed me way too many times.
Between the fear we laugh
Between tears we talk
So many unknowns
Friends call and visit
Flowers, cards, and food
I’m thankful that God sent a soft shoulder to cry on
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